A person of one thing

i think that God is truly showing me how to be a person of one thing..... ok so i'm going to be a bit personal here...... so many people around here are sort of pairing up...... (like guy girl kind of thing, even though they aren't supposed to be dating or anything like that..... anyways) so these people are like pairing up and all that good stuff..... well i am having sort of a problem with that.... not only because we are supposed to be focusing on God but also because it seems like i'm getting left out in the cold...... but it also seems as though God is preparing me for that day to come by helping me to get my attention focused on Him before that "special person" comes into my life...... of course i think part of my frustration i guess i could say is that i'm jealous...... and i'm sort of trying to work on this..... although it is really irritating..... anyways..... so as of thurs. i will have been here for 2 months and i will have i more month before i will be able to see all of my peoples again and at that time it will be DAVID AND MORGAN VERDERY!!!!!! WOOOOHOOOOO!!!!!!!

oh and i almost forgot.... i will be flying home for Christmas and it will be my first time flying EVER!!! it's going to be SOOOOO much fun!!!! i'm really excited about that if you couldn't tell..... anyways so i told mama today that i am officially homesick..... one of my roomates started putting out Christmans decorations that other day and i started getting homesick...... one of my other roomates from Czech Republic wasn't very happy about it either because i think she was kind of getting a little homesick to..... she's been in the U.S. for like almost 5 years.... she will be leaving in the spring.....

anyways.... so today was/ is our Sabbath so we don't have anything that we have to do until 4.... we have to be in the prayer room.... but i'm in here now because i'm on the computer and this is the only place i can get on right now... i know i'm in the prayer room i should probably be reading my Bible or something like that but it's really ok..... i really like the prayer room... it's so much fun just to come in here and do this cuz instead of having just a CD in the background you have a band and real live music in front of you.... plus i can soak and write this at the same time.... it's all good....

there's actually alot of people that bring their computers in here...... i don't know what they do on them though.... i see people like typing stuff all the time so i don't know.... maybe they like rewrite all of their notes or something..... i don't know.....

so now i'm just sort of going on and on and on..... oh well...... i sent out my support letters the other day..... some i emailed and others i just mailed it the old fashioned way..... so anybody that doesn't get one please let me know...... i only had emails of a few people so mama gave me what she had.... so i hope i got everybody.....

oh yeah plus right now they are doing a worship with the word, which is basically that do a few worship songs and then whatever team is playing picks like a chapter out of the Bible and they sing it and then they antyphonalize (sp) which basically means that they sing it and then they all respond to it or like develop it or whatever.... it's really good.... but basically during this time we usually do like Unger's or something like that..... or at least that's what we are supposed to do, but i just can't seem to get into that so much....

basically what we are supposed to do with it is we are supposed to read it and then read the same passage out of the Bible and then put it in our own words...... it really doesn't work to well for me though because i usually end up getting my head in it and it becomes an assigment which means that i really don't get anything out of it......

so if anybody want to check out anything about IHOP go to www.ihop.org. this has everything that you would want to know.... if you want like promotional videos or whatever, which i might send to some of you anyways (this is a BIG MIGHT) then just let me know..... they are DVDs and then we also have like brochures and things like that if you would like something like that.... just let me know.... you can email me at little_gyrl_2006@hotmail.com and let me know what you would like.....

oh yeah and they are having a ONETHING conference here on Dec. 28-31..... if you would like more information about this then i am going to need your address..... i can let them know i they can send you a promo pack and it will give you alot of information about it...... if you want to do this though you HAVE to go ahead and get registered and find a hotel..... i think that the IHOP (those hotels that give discounts or whatever if you area IHOP related) are all full so you have to jump on it really quick..... there's like alot of people so the sooner you decide the better.....

i will be coming home on Dec. 23rd.... my flight actually gets to Atlanta at like 7:30pm i think.... anyways..... so i guess that's all...... love everybody lots and lots and lots

oh yeah and thank you all for the prayers and support..... it's really really appreciated and helpful..... i am learning alot if you couldn't tell.....

this is just so amazing... it's like i'm a different person every time i walk out of the doors..... i have so much fun just doing this.... it's so great.... that's why it was so hard when Ali died..... because i felt like i had failed once again.... i told so somebody the other day i was like yeah (oh and this was after i had already sort of blown upburn team, which i a little meeting thing that every apartment has at midnight whenever we come in for our six hours, about this whole thing) anyways....... press pause on this for a sec and i will tell you about the burn team thing and then i can tell you this better....

ok so we go in to our burn team this was on friday.... so when we first all get in there we or i guess i was talking about Misty's set (she leads a devotional set every friday night at 10 after EGS) and so i was telling them how good it was and everything..... and then my core leader (the one that's like over the people in our apartment, she like tells us what we need to do and stuff like that) so she starts talking about us standing on the lines (in the front of the prayer room there are blue lines that we stand on.... every night a different apartment has to go up there and we go up there from midnight to 2 on Tues. and 4-6 on Fri.) so she starts talking about that i this thing... i guess it was anger just like rose up in me and i got really upset..... like i was sitting there saying ...... you know how am i supposed to keep praying when i don't know if they are actually doing any good..... there are all of these people here praying for things and they don't happen and so i'm like how are the things that i am praying for going to happen? (while i have been here 3 people that we were praying for have died and everything else that we were praying for fell through the cracks..... it didn't work out)

anyways so now to continue with the other story.... we were sitting there and she said something and i was like yeah that's why it hit me so hard the other day.... because this is what i love doing.... it's what i'm good at.... cuz it seems like there's really not anything else i'm good at and this is also how i can help people.... i don't like just going up to people and you know..... so this is what i do..... and it works... or at least i hope it does anyways...... i could just do this like all the time....... it's so much fun......oh yeah and so she was like it's not the only thing that your good at.... she was like your breathing aren't you..... then when i said the second part she was like that's just cuz you've never experienced any other way... this sort of made me a little mad but i don't know why....... i guess cuz it seemed like she was just sort of doing away with this new conclusion that i had come up with and it just wasn't very good......oh well

ok so i think that's really all this time.... i just actually realized that this is like really sort of long... oh well...... this isn't half of what i have learned.... anyways... so i guess i will go this time

love everybody lots and lots and lots...
allison

oh yeah uncle tom (or aunt vicki) if you read this i haven't had a chance to call i've been thinking about ya'll but haven't really had a chance to call..... how is your knee?

love ya'll again
allison