what's going on....

so as most of you know the internship is almost over. we have less than 2 weeks left before i have to figure out what i'm going to do.... soooooo, now here comes the big moment when i let the cat out of the bag...... after much thought and prayer i have decided to move up here for now.... i'm going to be working part time and i think i might join staff part time, but i'm not quite so sure on that part.... to be totally and completely honest i am really really stressed out about the whole thing.... we went apartment hunting today and it didn't go very well... apartments are so expensive.... so now i'm looking into possibly renting from someone who owns a house.... what happens in people here at IHOP buy houses and then rent out rooms to people, so i think that's what i'm going to be doing..... i would really like to get an apartment somewhere, but that really isn't going to work out with what i need... i really sort of think that i am loosing my mind, honestly, because this is just so extremely overwhelming and i don't really know what i'm doing and it's just really really hard, especially with everything that i have been going through in the past however long it's been...... so i'm really really really needing your prayer and support right now because i am really extremely stressed out..... i'm trying to do what everybody else wants me to do and trying to please everybody else and i'm going insane trying to do that and keep everybody everywhere updated and all that i don't know what i'm doing