a song

This is where i'm at, i think the song says the rest.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=532jxGDRjGY

update

so i just figured i'd let everybody know. Dylan had surgery wed. to get his tonsils and adnoids out. he did very very well. the doctor told alicia and micheal that he was the kid that all doctors wanted for this sugery he did that well. he surprised us all!!!

it's interesting sometimes how things turn out... i had to start homeschooling because i couldn't go to school. i have now decided to go back to school for teaching. so i will hopefully be starting school this sept. i need lots and lots of prayer. i'm already beginning to get somewhat nervous, but everything is going to be fine. i'm also just as excited to get started as anything else. so i guess that's all.

update

so not really much going on, but just figured i'd update everybody on my situation right now. so the deal fell through on the stilwell's house. so i'm still there with daddy for now. other than that i have been sick for 3 weeks now. what started as a sore throat ended up with me going to the doctor twice and the emergency room ocnce. it ended up being bronchitis that just wouldn't go away. i'm getting much better now though. i'm currently unemployed for the most part. i start keeping kids for the Methodist church again in june. cleaning houses is a story that i don't want to get into on here. basically right now i'm in a position of not really knowing what i'm going to do. my life seems to be insanely out of control. yeah so anyways guess that's it.

almost houseless

so the stilwells have just about sold their house. the people that are buying it though said that we could rent it until the end of june. so that's good. so we/i have 2 and a half ish months to find a place to live. some good news is that we are getting more houses to clean. this past week was pretty busy for us. that's really good. i'm also thinking about getting a few houses to clean in washington so that will help me out some. anyways. guess that's all i want to put on here.
see ya'll later
allison

been a while

so i just realized that it's been a month since i last posted and so i figured i should post something. so here is an update on my life. i still have three jobs right now, but keeping the two little kids is going to end this friday for a while. i'll start that back when she goes back to work at the end on april. i know it's a long time to wait but it will be ok. although i will miss the kids and yes let's face it the extra money as well. that has helped me to save some money though. i'm still living in my pastor's house right now (they obviously haven't sold it yet.) and for the forseeable future i will be there. the way it is going right now they will most likely sell it before i get another place. mother's morning out (the job that's two days a week) is going good. we are just about full on both days now. i have decided to continue with this job at least until the end of summer. then i will figure out if i want to keep doing that of if i want to do something else. right now i really don't know. i have sort of been thinking about getting my teaching degree, but ONLY thinking. just sort of throwing the idea around in my head. for now i am pretty busy, which i like. it sort of takes away some of the loneliness. i can't really think of anything else to write right now. so i guess that's it.
love all
allison

Long time comin

so it's been a while.... life's been crazy.... long story short i am living in Washington now in my pastor's house with my daddy until they can sell it. at the moment i have three jobs one of which is long term. one i just started last week, keepin 2 little kids while their mama substitute teaches. my number one job is two days a week keepin kids then the long term one is cleaning houses. so guess that's it. i'm lookin for a place to settle down. for now that's really not happening though. guess God knows what he's doing though.
love ya'll
allison

Update on Me

Sorry it's been so long so i blogged. I've been really busy to say the least. I am working two jobs and now i'm also moving. Many probably don't know what has happened in the last few weeks so allow me to fill you in. Sept. 28th we put my grandma (Ema, my daddy's mama) in the hospital. We put here on the ventilater just to help her to calm down. She couldn't get her breath and so she was panicing which was making it that much worse. Anyways so she holds on all week and the Oct. 5th at like twenty til five she died. We all sort of said she did that so that it wouldn't inconvenience that many people to have here funeral on Sun. so that's what we did. this past mon. (that would be yesterday) mr. tom and mrs. laurie and their kids left and moved back to Texas. me and daddy are moving in to fix it so that they can sell it. i guess that's about all right now.

A Poll (Pole?)

anyways... so we have this idea and i wanted to know if anybody would go for it or not... so read the WHOLE!!!!! post and then comment PLEASE!!!

ok so here is the idea....

if there was a farm that you could go to for a few days or whatever would you go? this farm would also allow day passes. there would be different activities to do while you are there. there would be things like riding horses, feeding different animals like pigs, goats, cows, sheep, rabbits etc. you would be able to pet the animals and see people milk the cows. there would be three meals a day, but you would have to be there on time to eat. there would be a garden that you could go and look at. and different things like that. if you think this is a good idea please let me know. and if you don't think that it's a good idea still let me know. constructive critism is good.


thanks all
love
allison

Posting Just Because

so this i pretty much just a post just because i wanted to post something. i actually just realized that i need to change the title of my blog. (random thought) anyways so everything is going good. went up to Helen yesterday to see some family with some family. and to check out where my cousins were living last year. life really hasn't been to exciting except for maybe stuff that i won't put on here. just sort of going along. i haven't really gotten a job yet. bilo is dragging their feet. i do have a job at the methodist church sorta though. i'm keeping kids two days a week. the catch is that i'm a substitute so i only go in at certain times, which means that i could go a whole week without working. we are trying to figure something out for us to do. something will come along. meanwhile i am praying and trying to get closer to god while trying not to go insane. anyways. there's more stuff going on that i won't put on here now, but i'm sure they will come out at some point. anyways love all lots....

allison

just a new post i guess..... (sort of ranting)

i wonder if anybody has ever sat down i really figured out all of the different types of friends..... or thought about how lucky some people really are in their friendships....

let's see....
you have your acquaintances, which are just people that you are friendly to and talk to, like some coworkers or people like that....

you have your convenince friends..... these are friends that are there went it is convenient for them (the kind that i tend to attract most of the time)

then you have those people who are really really lucky who have friends that they have grown up with... they have been friends their whole lives.... they may not be very close, but they are friends


then you have the lucky ones.... (how many people actually have these friends i don't know, but i'm apparently not one of them) the lucky people are those who have a friend of their own age that will be there whenever they need them... they can tell this person anything and this person can tell them anything.... people may even say that these people could be joined at the hip or something... these are people who won't leave each other hanging and no matter what won't stab the other one in the back...


you know friends are supposed to bring you happiness and joy, sometimes it will be pain and sorrow, but your supposed to be happy.... you see, the problem with being convenient friends is that one person can want a relationship and try their hardest and work their tales off, but that won't work. when you are convenienced it hurts and it hurts bad....


i'm sorry..... then again i'm really not sorry for people who read this that get offended, hurt, mad or anything else.... this is what i am dealing with right now.... i may end up getting nailed for putting this on here for all the world to see, but at least now people will know.... so if you have people that are just your "convenient" friends it might be a good thing for you to sort of do something about that because you might not realize that you are hurting them pretty bad....


if you read this whole post then thanks and hopefully your not to depressed or anything when you get done.....

allison

Is there an answer????

all of our lives people are always asking why. why is the sky blue and the grass green? why does the wind blew? as we get older our questions become harder and harder to answer. they go from why is the sky blue and the grass green to why do people get hurt? why do some have to work their tale end off for everything they get and then they still don't quite have enough? why are some people able to plan out their lives while others are left wondering where they went wrong or where they're supposed to go? why do some people go to college others get married while still others are left in their dust with their head spinning trying to get their feet back in the right direction?

all my life i have asked some of these same questions...... the thing is i don't know how many i have actually gotten the anwsers to..... it seems as though the why questions i have the more questions i have that go unanswered. i guess the biggest why question of all for at least is why am i here?
i guess that's all i got
me

Blogging.... or lack there of

so i just wanted to let everyone know that i probably won't be blogging on here much for a while.... it seems as though nobody else has been blogging either so oh well.... i figure until i can get my life settled down some i don't need to be on here.... something people say all the time... if ya can't say something nice don't say anything at all... right now i don't think it would really help anybody for me to post on here so i think i will just take a break....

love all
allison

blah blah blah

yeah so i try and keep this positive and all that, but right now life just stinks.... so there ya have it that's what's going on with me right now....
love all
allison

just to let everyone know...

i just wanted to let everybody know that i haven't like fallen off the face of the earth or anything... although it sort of felt like it.... anyways.... my plan was to leave ga on mon. (april 9th) but all of that changed.... i ended up sick and i went to the doctor and they said that i have bronchitis and a sinus infection... woooohoooo just what i needed.... so i have been at the house since mon. and i am planning on leaving ga. tomoro but we will see what happens..... it has become alot harder to leave this time than it was the last two times i left so if ya'll could pray for me that would be great!!!!!

love all
allison

A few pics of the Banquet

ok so here's a few pics of the banquet, i'm probably going to try and put more up here tomorow or something.....

ok so my computer wasn't cooperating, but i promise i'll get some on here!!!! right now i have to go though so i can go to the doctor with my sis.....
love all
allison

In the big GA

so i just wanted to let everybody know that i made it back to georgia ok.... so exciting/dangerous things happen on the way here.... just a drive.... it was fun, though.... i took two of my roommates home because their car was messed up and they couldn't drive it.... a trip that was supposed to take about 7 hours took 10 because i kept having to stop because i had only 4 hours of sleep and plus it had been a rough day.... i'll just leave it at that i guess..... anyways.... i'll be in ga for like 2 weeks or so and then i'll probly be heading back to MO.... anyways that's really all i can think of that i want to write so yeah love all lots and lots and i can't wait to see ya (especially you morgan!!!! hint hint) anyways love ya all lots and lots and lots and lots and lots!!!!!
allison aka jamie

oh yeah and i'm going to try and figure out a way to put some pics on here if i can love all

really quick

i just wanted to let everybody know that i will be back in georgia either really late tomorow or really early tues. i think.... i'm not really sure though... also I FOUND A PLACE TO LIVE!!!!! it pretty much just fell in my lap, which is really really good because i had run out of options....
love all
allison

update

ok... so this is what's going on.... i have 2 days left in the internship..... then i'm going to drive back to georgia and get stuff squared away there.... then i'm going to come back up here in 2 weeks.... the problem with that right now is that i have no place to live and the people that i was looking with both found a place but i can't afford to have a place by myself and i don't know of anybody else that's looking for a place.... most everybody has already found a place... oh and i don't have a job yet either.... i applied at 2 different places and neither one has called me back.... so that's about it in a nutshell..... oh yeah and i'm really extremely stressed out, had a panic attack last night and everything and i think i might be going crazy (lol) anyways that's all....

love all
allison

less than a week

so we have less than a week left and i still have no place to live.... i went job hunting today and i think that i might have one.... oh i just realized i have to go... love all...allison

what's going on....

so as most of you know the internship is almost over. we have less than 2 weeks left before i have to figure out what i'm going to do.... soooooo, now here comes the big moment when i let the cat out of the bag...... after much thought and prayer i have decided to move up here for now.... i'm going to be working part time and i think i might join staff part time, but i'm not quite so sure on that part.... to be totally and completely honest i am really really stressed out about the whole thing.... we went apartment hunting today and it didn't go very well... apartments are so expensive.... so now i'm looking into possibly renting from someone who owns a house.... what happens in people here at IHOP buy houses and then rent out rooms to people, so i think that's what i'm going to be doing..... i would really like to get an apartment somewhere, but that really isn't going to work out with what i need... i really sort of think that i am loosing my mind, honestly, because this is just so extremely overwhelming and i don't really know what i'm doing and it's just really really hard, especially with everything that i have been going through in the past however long it's been...... so i'm really really really needing your prayer and support right now because i am really extremely stressed out..... i'm trying to do what everybody else wants me to do and trying to please everybody else and i'm going insane trying to do that and keep everybody everywhere updated and all that i don't know what i'm doing