This week

so everything is going good... i had a good thanksgiving... better than i thought it was going to be to tell ya the truth.... we went over to a core leaders' house and we had SOOOO much food... and it was really good to.... so basically what we did is they closed the kitchen down and we went to her house.... everybody made something.... i made cornbread..... except everybody thought that they were pancakes cuz i fried them instead of putting it in the oven...

everybody thought that it was really really good.... personally i knew that it was the wrong kind of cornmeal and it didn't taste like it was supposed because it was sweet.... anyways... that's all i have time for right now... we have a staff meeting today....

love all
Allison

long days/nights

so yeah i just thought i would let everybody know that i was just up for like 20 hours straight... for some this might not be a big deal... but for me it's a record.... why did you do this you might ask??? well i will tell you... so this week was thanksgiving right... well three of my roomates left and went home.... one came in at 9 this morning and i was the lucky one that she called yesterday to come and pick her up....

me being the person i am i guess and not being able to tell people no i told her i would be there.... so i left here at like 8 this morning and drove to the airport and picked her up.... we finally got back here and i went to bed for like 6 hours (which really wasn't enough) and so now i am here typing this up...

anyways... so i was actually going to go to bed and then get up and go but i decided that it would just be better to just s

prayers and other stuff

so i have come to realize (of course i could be wrong) that alot of the time when people (me included) thank other people for their prayers ...... i'm really not sure how to put this.... when many people thank others for their prayers alot of the time it's after that person has told them that they are praying for them...... to me it seems like alot of people just do it because that's what your supposed to do and in the back of their mind they are just sort of like whatever like it didn't really make a difference or whatever....

i just want to say that being here and spending many many hours in the prayer room i have come to really really aprreciate prayer.... for one because that's what i really love to do and for two i know that it takes time and energy for prayer..... so i say all of this to say that when i say thank you to people for your prayers i'm really really THANKING you for your prayers..... it really means alot to me when people tell me they are praying because i know what it takes.....

ok now that i have that out of the way...... (it was really on my heart to say or i guess write that and until i did i couldn't write anything else...... anyways...... so today is my first day off........ like i have NOTHING to do..... this is the only time that any of the tracks have any kind of break.... we have one because of THANKSGIVING..... so yeah anyways.... alot of people went home for Thanksgiving..... but me being the person i am i decided that i would stay here for thanksgiving..... i figured it would be easier as far as my sleeping and all that goes..... so anyways.... now i'm here for thanksgiving sort of feeling a little low because i've never been away from home on thanksgiving before....

anyways... we'll have fun though cuz i'm going over to one of our core leader's house and we are giong to have thanksgiving over there..... it will be fun...... i'm hoping anyways..... it won't be like home though.... oh well i'll be there for christmas so that's good..... plus i have a few special places that i won't to go this week to...... just a little extra stuff for thanksgiving.... a treat i guess you could say... anyways... so i guess that's all...

i hope everybody has a really good thanksgiving and don't forget to give thanks to the main one.... if you don't know who that is just think about easter and christmas (the birth and resurrection)...... anyways so that's really all this time....

love ya'll lots and lots


oh one more thought..... have you ever noticed how many times i start and stop on my blogs? that just sort of goes to show you how really random my mind goes and how fast...anyways but just think about how much love everybody is getting because i do that so many times.... (this was actually another thought that i just didn't want to put after i ended AGAIN....)



that's really really all this time
allison

errors

so i just read my other blog.... the one i did last night.... amd i realized that it has ALOT of mistakes in it.... hopefully people can figure it out though.....

so yeah anyways..... ummmmm i guess that's really all... oh one thing i didn't say last night... for anybody that wants to you can go on the IHOP website and you can get a live whatever from the prayer room.... (i think it's like $10 a month though) anyways so you can get a live feed or whatever from the prayer room so if you would like to see me all you have to do is get on their between midnight and 2am on Tues. or 4-6am on Fri. (that's my time by the way) and you can see me.... usually i'm pacing..... mainly because otherwise i'll get really bored, but also because it sort of helps me to keep going and keep praying for people....

we had a all night burn one fri night (which means that basically instead of having a intercession set the worship with the word and the another intercession set we had all intercession and we were praying for America..... there were lots of people :(...... i don't like lots of people..... they get in my space) anyways..... so yeah i paced for like 5 hours or something like that..... i was sort of tired by the time we got to the apartment and my legs were in lots of pain.... it was worth it though..... i had fun....

anyways guess that's all
love ya'll
allison

oh and i will explain the sets and things in further detail later....

A person of one thing

i think that God is truly showing me how to be a person of one thing..... ok so i'm going to be a bit personal here...... so many people around here are sort of pairing up...... (like guy girl kind of thing, even though they aren't supposed to be dating or anything like that..... anyways) so these people are like pairing up and all that good stuff..... well i am having sort of a problem with that.... not only because we are supposed to be focusing on God but also because it seems like i'm getting left out in the cold...... but it also seems as though God is preparing me for that day to come by helping me to get my attention focused on Him before that "special person" comes into my life...... of course i think part of my frustration i guess i could say is that i'm jealous...... and i'm sort of trying to work on this..... although it is really irritating..... anyways..... so as of thurs. i will have been here for 2 months and i will have i more month before i will be able to see all of my peoples again and at that time it will be DAVID AND MORGAN VERDERY!!!!!! WOOOOHOOOOO!!!!!!!

oh and i almost forgot.... i will be flying home for Christmas and it will be my first time flying EVER!!! it's going to be SOOOOO much fun!!!! i'm really excited about that if you couldn't tell..... anyways so i told mama today that i am officially homesick..... one of my roomates started putting out Christmans decorations that other day and i started getting homesick...... one of my other roomates from Czech Republic wasn't very happy about it either because i think she was kind of getting a little homesick to..... she's been in the U.S. for like almost 5 years.... she will be leaving in the spring.....

anyways.... so today was/ is our Sabbath so we don't have anything that we have to do until 4.... we have to be in the prayer room.... but i'm in here now because i'm on the computer and this is the only place i can get on right now... i know i'm in the prayer room i should probably be reading my Bible or something like that but it's really ok..... i really like the prayer room... it's so much fun just to come in here and do this cuz instead of having just a CD in the background you have a band and real live music in front of you.... plus i can soak and write this at the same time.... it's all good....

there's actually alot of people that bring their computers in here...... i don't know what they do on them though.... i see people like typing stuff all the time so i don't know.... maybe they like rewrite all of their notes or something..... i don't know.....

so now i'm just sort of going on and on and on..... oh well...... i sent out my support letters the other day..... some i emailed and others i just mailed it the old fashioned way..... so anybody that doesn't get one please let me know...... i only had emails of a few people so mama gave me what she had.... so i hope i got everybody.....

oh yeah plus right now they are doing a worship with the word, which is basically that do a few worship songs and then whatever team is playing picks like a chapter out of the Bible and they sing it and then they antyphonalize (sp) which basically means that they sing it and then they all respond to it or like develop it or whatever.... it's really good.... but basically during this time we usually do like Unger's or something like that..... or at least that's what we are supposed to do, but i just can't seem to get into that so much....

basically what we are supposed to do with it is we are supposed to read it and then read the same passage out of the Bible and then put it in our own words...... it really doesn't work to well for me though because i usually end up getting my head in it and it becomes an assigment which means that i really don't get anything out of it......

so if anybody want to check out anything about IHOP go to www.ihop.org. this has everything that you would want to know.... if you want like promotional videos or whatever, which i might send to some of you anyways (this is a BIG MIGHT) then just let me know..... they are DVDs and then we also have like brochures and things like that if you would like something like that.... just let me know.... you can email me at little_gyrl_2006@hotmail.com and let me know what you would like.....

oh yeah and they are having a ONETHING conference here on Dec. 28-31..... if you would like more information about this then i am going to need your address..... i can let them know i they can send you a promo pack and it will give you alot of information about it...... if you want to do this though you HAVE to go ahead and get registered and find a hotel..... i think that the IHOP (those hotels that give discounts or whatever if you area IHOP related) are all full so you have to jump on it really quick..... there's like alot of people so the sooner you decide the better.....

i will be coming home on Dec. 23rd.... my flight actually gets to Atlanta at like 7:30pm i think.... anyways..... so i guess that's all...... love everybody lots and lots and lots

oh yeah and thank you all for the prayers and support..... it's really really appreciated and helpful..... i am learning alot if you couldn't tell.....

this is just so amazing... it's like i'm a different person every time i walk out of the doors..... i have so much fun just doing this.... it's so great.... that's why it was so hard when Ali died..... because i felt like i had failed once again.... i told so somebody the other day i was like yeah (oh and this was after i had already sort of blown upburn team, which i a little meeting thing that every apartment has at midnight whenever we come in for our six hours, about this whole thing) anyways....... press pause on this for a sec and i will tell you about the burn team thing and then i can tell you this better....

ok so we go in to our burn team this was on friday.... so when we first all get in there we or i guess i was talking about Misty's set (she leads a devotional set every friday night at 10 after EGS) and so i was telling them how good it was and everything..... and then my core leader (the one that's like over the people in our apartment, she like tells us what we need to do and stuff like that) so she starts talking about us standing on the lines (in the front of the prayer room there are blue lines that we stand on.... every night a different apartment has to go up there and we go up there from midnight to 2 on Tues. and 4-6 on Fri.) so she starts talking about that i this thing... i guess it was anger just like rose up in me and i got really upset..... like i was sitting there saying ...... you know how am i supposed to keep praying when i don't know if they are actually doing any good..... there are all of these people here praying for things and they don't happen and so i'm like how are the things that i am praying for going to happen? (while i have been here 3 people that we were praying for have died and everything else that we were praying for fell through the cracks..... it didn't work out)

anyways so now to continue with the other story.... we were sitting there and she said something and i was like yeah that's why it hit me so hard the other day.... because this is what i love doing.... it's what i'm good at.... cuz it seems like there's really not anything else i'm good at and this is also how i can help people.... i don't like just going up to people and you know..... so this is what i do..... and it works... or at least i hope it does anyways...... i could just do this like all the time....... it's so much fun......oh yeah and so she was like it's not the only thing that your good at.... she was like your breathing aren't you..... then when i said the second part she was like that's just cuz you've never experienced any other way... this sort of made me a little mad but i don't know why....... i guess cuz it seemed like she was just sort of doing away with this new conclusion that i had come up with and it just wasn't very good......oh well

ok so i think that's really all this time.... i just actually realized that this is like really sort of long... oh well...... this isn't half of what i have learned.... anyways... so i guess i will go this time

love everybody lots and lots and lots...
allison

oh yeah uncle tom (or aunt vicki) if you read this i haven't had a chance to call i've been thinking about ya'll but haven't really had a chance to call..... how is your knee?

love ya'll again
allison

Do-it-yourself-girl

ok so to continue my story....... so i go and finally get the right light after having a really really bad day before...... go back to the apartment and get it out it's the right one and everything. so i have to open the tailgate right? well normally this would be no big deal... but ya see like a year or two ago daddy backed into a tractor tire (i know i know you would think that he would see it and you would also think that he would remember that it's there seeing as he put it there but anyways) so the tailgate is all bent up which means that in order to open it you have to have a screw driver... well the one that i had wasn't cooperating so guess what.... i now on a set (it's like 6 and they were cheap cuz i couldn't find just one) of screw drivers.... so anyways get back to the apartment and open the tailgate (by the way at the point the wind is blowing nonstop and my hands feel like they are about to fall off because they are so cold) so now i take out all the screws pull that light out and then realize i don't know how to take the light out..... so thank goodness it was busted because all i had to do was look in where they were and see how to take them out..... it was great..... so i got everything out got the other light and put everything back in hoping that i had put all the lights back right because i forgot which one went where.... anyways so now i have a brand new tail light..... it looks sort of funny though cuz it's alot cleanere than the other one.... oh well....

so i think i told everybody on here about the twins that were born without brains (basically they had fluid in their brains) well Ali died thurs. at 2am. anyways so that was hard.... so i guess that's all.....

love everybody
allison

Where is everybody?

So i am beginning to wonder if everybody has left and didn't tell me or something...... IS ANYBODY OUT THERE??????

anyways...... so i figured i would update people on some things. i'm doing good, i've been really busy lately trying to do lots of different things like sending out support letters and fixing my tail light and all that good stuff. i actually had to go to the auto parts store like four different times because they gave me the wrong light. it turned out for the better thought because i actually got it for cheaper.... anyways i'll have to write more later i have some more to say... actually a good bit more...... but i have to go right now......

love everybody and i will talk to ya'll later
allison

Pray for your enemies cont.

ok so first... if you haven't read the one before this then you need to read it first because you will be missing out..... anyways so oh yeah i sort of messed that verse up that i used so just sort of disregard that i guess. i would fix it except that once again i don't have my bible with me......

anyways so to continue with the story.... so we got out and looked at it and the guy was like you don't have to call the police if you don't want to and it didn't even register that MY vehicle was the only one hurt...... so the driver guy was like ok so what do we do...... so the passenger dude told him to copy down his insurance information and give it to me so that guy went over and started doing that. then he brings it back over to my truck and the passenger dude takes it from him and starts doing it. so i called daddy and talked to him as i watched him write down the information. i didn't think about it at the time but i should have done that and i should have gotten his license plate numer and his license i think (or course all of that would have been taken care of if i had of called the police. but anyways) so he wrote all of that down got my name and cell phone number and gave me the information and then they left and i sat there continuing to talk to daddy. so we talked then i left and had to somewhere else turn around because there was a cement thing in the middle of the road and so then i realized that the place that i had decided to turn around wasn't exactly the best place to turn around.... it was a bad neighborhood and then i had to sit at the stop sign for like 5 minutes before i got out..... oh well though...

so skip forward a few hours..... i talked to my roomates and a few others about it and we decided that i needed to call the police and get an accident report whenever i got up the next day oh and i had also called the insurance company, but they were already closed. so i left a message and told them to call me back after 2 the next day. so at 10:30 (when i was sound asleep) the insurance company calls and i have to give them all of my information which means that i had to go outside.... so here's me walking outside in my pajamas and my NASCAR jacket to get the vin number and license plate number off of the truck......

so i give her the policy number and the first thing that she said was that didn't sound like one of their numbers. i gave her his name to and that way even if that wasn't one of their policy numbers then they could still find it....

oh yeah i forgot like the most important part.... although i forget if it was the night of the day the he hit me or the next one (oh a little background information is that we had GBF global bridegroom fast this week so we had to be in the prayer room from 8pm to 6am) so i go in the prayer room and i decide to pray for these 2 guys (this is where the praying for your enemies part comes in) so i start praying for them and i prayed for them for the first 2 hours of my time in the prayer room because that's the all staff intercession set that we do..... so then the next day when i found out that these guys had ripped me off i just had the overwhelming peace about things..... actually no it was the day that i found out that they ripped me off that i prayed for them and that's when i got the overwhelming peace about the whole thing...... before that i was upset but not because they had hit me and we are going to pay for it but because i trusted them enough or maybe i was just innocent enough and they took advantage of that..... that's what made me upset or mad or whatever........ so anyways i prayed for them and that's when i got the peace that it's all going to be ok....... so now i'm going to keep praying for them and if they decide that they want to make things right they have both my name and my cell number so they can talk to me if they want to....

this just goes to show you that praying for people that wrong you really does help.... i coulde have spent the whole time in the prayer room thinking about that and being upset about that but i chose to go the other way and i actually felt alot better than i would have otherwise..... so now i just have to find a place where i can go and get it fixed and i'll be doing good...... so i guess that's all

love everybody lots and lots
allison

Pray for your enemies

so i realized the other day that reading the Bible really is helping me out and i really am getting somethingout of it. so now i will tell you how i came to this conclusion. oh first i have to tell you that i have developed a new passion for reading the Bible. it's like i just can't put it down half the time. so in my time here i have read Math. like twice i've read Mark and i and almost done with Luke. PLUS i have read the Song Of Songs ALOT because i am doing a study on that one. at the beginning of our track they told us to pick something to study during our time here and this was the book that i chose. so i got the first part of Mike Bikle's Song of Songs study thing and i'm going through that. for a while there that's really all i was doing and so now it has sort of gotten a little boring, but none the less i must press on........ anyways so that's really not where i was wanting to go with this one but anyways...... now i will get back to my point.

so in Math i think either chapter 6 or 7 i forget which on and i don't have my Bible here with me right now. it talks about something like something about those that love you, pray for your enemies and bless those who persecute you. because you really don't get anything out of loving only those who love you or something like that. anyways in this post i want to focus on the part that says pray for your enemies.

anyways..... so the other day i was looking for this place called Aldi..... for those of who don't know supposedly it's like this really good place to shop. like it is really cheap and stuff like that. but they only sell like the off brand stuff and you have to bring your own bags and you pay like a quarter to use a buggy. anyways so i was looking for this place right and so i decided to turn around. so i go left at a traffic light and go turn around. then i decide that i'm going to go check out this shopping center thing that's on the other side of the street, which means that i have to go straight. so the light was green and so i go. well there was a jeep wrangler (those that have the roll bar and you can have the hard or soft or no top on them) anyways so he was turning right. so apparently he didn't think that i was going fast enough or something because as i was going in front of him he started pulling out. i really thought he was going to hit me in the door. but alas instead he hit me on the tail in and he busted my right tail light or at least the blinker part (which is half of it and that's bad enough) anyways he also put a few little dents in the side right beside the light and he left some paint on there to. anyways so we pull over into the parking lot of the shopping place that i was trying to look at and get out and get out and look at it. this is when i make my first big mistake so pay close attention to this part. so we get out and look and we're just sort of standing there looking at it and i say that this is only my second wreck and so i'm really not sure what to do and that i'm not from around here. so the guy driving was like well i've never been in a wreck before. so the passenger guy was like well you really don't have to call the police. i was like ok. i didn't even register that it was MY vehicle that was messed up not the other one.

ok so ya'll are probably going to get really mad but i will have to finish later because i have to go.......
love ya
allison

well...

so i was just sitting here so i figured that i would just put something on here right quick. anyways. so everything is still going good. my core leader told us about tedd haggard the other day. (if you don't know about him it's a really long story but the jist of it is that he got caught in some bad things and it's just not really good especially because he was a pastor in colorado springs.) so anyways um everybody's been praying really hard about that. among other things. just to let everybody know if you don't already. on election day in south dakota there is going to be a write in thing about abortion. basically this state has one abortion clinic and they fly isomebody in from another state i think that does the abortions. this state has about as many people as st. louis does. so anyways. if they pass this ban on abortion then there are 13 other states also looking at this issue and it could cause a ripple affect into these states. this means that these states could also ban abortion. this is a really really big thing that we are praying for right now. another thing is israel. i don't know enough about that to really say anything about it, but i am going to study and look at that more. anyways. we are doing our global bridegroom fast this mon. tues. and wed. so everybody really be praying. it's going to be fun, although i really don't like fasting at all but oh well. anyways. i'm probably going to start calling people for addresses in the next few days. it actually turns out that i can just email letters and stuff to people. this will save me money and all that good stuff because otherwise i would have to go to some place (i forget the name of it) and print stuff out. with doing emails i won't have to do quite as many. anyways.
love ya'll and i will write more at some other time
allison

well then

so i had this really good kinda long post that i was going to write and then i was trying to update my computer so i clicked on something and it restarted my computer and so i lost that whole thing. so basically i just wasted time. which is what i have been struggling with for the past week or so. i really like just hanging out with people and just kind of relaxing but the thing is when i do this i feel guilty because i feel like i can use that time to be in the prayer room. or doing something like going over the numerous notes and things that i have acquired from my classes and egses and all of that (egs is encountering God service, which is what i have tonight. so yeah. oh and the other thing that i said something about in the other blog that i wrote is that i am going to start using this to update people on things that we are praying for and what's going on with me and alot about what i am learning and things like that. so maybe this will help me process stuff a little better and maybe it can also help other people to. so everybody needs to check this whenever they can. also i'm going to start sending out support letters to raise money for my track 2 stuff. in order to do this i really need addresses. so if you could email me little_gyrl_2006@hotmail.com your address this would be great. even if you can't help me out send me your address so that i can send you a newsletter. even though i am doing this blog i will send out newsletters this way those who aren't exactly computer people can still find out what's going on. and for those of you who know people that aren't computer people if you could help me out by asking them for their addresses this would be wonderful especially since i don't have everybody's phone numbers. oh yeah i almost forgot about that part. i need those to so that i can call you and follow up with my letter. thank you so so much.

love everybody and next time i will do more if i have time.
allison

.......

so i didn't know what to call this so oh well..... anyways everything's going good..... God's really working on lots of things with me and with other people..... we had our apartment meeting today and we were just talking and then they got to me and one of the girls was like yeah she's changed alot...... i was like whoa..... she was like she's been through some stuff or something like that...... anyways..... we had inner healing wed. and thur. which was good but very very tiring... they actually let us go early from the prayer room so that we could go to sleep.... i don't know if anybody has heard of living waters, but that's what it was....... it's like a thirty week program that they put in two days...... anyways..... that's it for now....... oh and i will let everybody know i guess that i am thinking about staying for the second track and after that i don't really know..... this is pretty neat because i told God when i got here that if He wanted me to stay then He was really going to have to change my heart because i wasn't really wanting to..... and He did so yeah.... i will probably be sending out support letters to lots of the people who are reading this.... more info. about that later..... anyways guess that's all that i can do right now.....

love everybody lots and lots.....
allison

really really quick!!!

ok so...... everything's going good..... we finally started our classes this week and we are getting on our schedule..... now i must go eat love all!!!!
allison

hey

so i have like two seconds.... i am on the computer in the cafeteria so i have to be really short.... everything is going pretty good now.... the first days were tough but i actually got sleep last night.... it was good to be able to get some sleep....... if anybody would like to send me mail mama has my address so email or talk to her and she will give it to you.... MAIL IS DEFINITLY WELCOME!!!! everything can be sent by that address.... i will try to write more once i get the computer stuff worked out..... after this week everything will slow down alot so i may be able to put more on here.... guess that's it for now.... everybody please keep praying i need it alot..... thanks so much to those of you who have been fighting for me in the past couple of days.... it's been kind of hard....
love ya'll lots
allison (or IHOP chic)

WOOOOOHOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i just figured i would let everybody know that I AM LEAVING IN LIKE 1 HOUR!!!!!!! WOOOHOOOO then i get to go see morgan and eat and then keep going to tenn. to my hotel all in one day........ it's going to be GREAT!!!! ya'll keep on praying to ok....... it's a long drive up there......... once again thank you all for ALL of your support (in whatever way it was given money emotional whatever......) THANK YOU SOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!
love ya'll buches i have to go and get ready and finish packing those last minute things......

LOVE YA'LL BUNCHES AND BUNCHES AND BUNCHES
Allison

LEAVING!!!

just to let everybody know i am leaving for IHOP tomorrow....

i need lots and lots of prayer for the rest of tonight and the next couple of days....

after losing that work and then after not being able to figure out what to do on another paper i haven't finished school.... that will work itself it.... so pray for me for that cuz i'm sort of stressed because of that..... now i'm taking a break from packing to write this soooooo....... i guess i should get back to packing.... oh yeah.... i don't have my address yet so i will get it to mama and she can give it to people...... so you all that are far away in different places i'm sure that you will know somebody that can give it to you!! I WILL BE EXPECTING LOTS OF MAIL!!!! (hint hint) and a few visiters wouldn't hurt if anyone feels up to it....... hehehehehehehe of course that's only if you would like to spend lots and lots of time in the prayer room and that sort of thing.... i was told that the only day i will have off will be on thurs.... (just to let ya'll know) anyways...

oh yeah if anyone does happen to come and see me..... i don't think you will actually be able to stay with me.... (there will already be 8 people in a 2 bed 2 bath apartment) so you will have to make other accomodations..... you will have to check in to it, but i think that if you mention something about IHOP you might get a discount...... anyways.......


almost forgot..... THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL OF YOU SUPPORT!!!!! I HAVE MORE THAN ENOUGH MONEY AND ALL OF THAT GOOD STUFF TO GO!!!! THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!!


LOVE YA BUNCHES AND BUNCHES!!!!
ALLISON
(I THINK I CAN TAKE THE CAPS OFF NOW WHAT DO YA THINK?)

I'M FALLING AND I CAN'T GET UP (BUT DO I REALLY WANT TO)

ok this post is about two really different things that just so happen to have made an extremely really really big impact on my life and feel like i can finally share these with lots of people so here goes. so lots of people know that i have been through lots of stuff in the past years. i won't go into details cuz that's more than i want to do right now...... anyways....... so i've been through lots of stuff..... that was one falling experience for me..... falling because i fell away from lots of different things at that time..... to explain i will say..... it was hard.... to say the least..... but God and his various ways helped me through and picked me up........ the problem for a while was that i didn't know how to stand....... it seemed as though i had been flat on my face for so long that it was comfortable and i didn't want to do anything else..... it was sort of that poor pitiful me kinda thing...... i think that's where lots of people tend to get stuck sometimes...... you get to where you are comfortable in what spot... no matter how bad it is and you/ we just decide to stay there instead of deciding to get up and face the world......

now i have to use a little lesson that mr. jim taught on about the egyptians and the wilderness..... that's pretty much what this experience is...... that's what the egyptians did..... they wanted so bad to get out of egypt so so so bad..... then we they got out and realized that what they were going into was unknown and egypt was what they knew(no matter how bad it was) they wanted to go back....... it was like they were telling God we don't care what it's like on the other side...... we just want to be "safe"..... sometimes what people might think is "safe" is actually worse that what they could run into on a different path..... this is what we tend to do alot of the time..... we get start out in egypt and go to the wilderness, but once we get there we start to get scared because we don't know what's going to happen....... we can either choose to trust God that He will take care of us (side note: ummm why wouldn't He take care of exactly? i mean seeing as He's the one that created us in the first place....) we have to give everything up and follow Him..... let Him lead!!!!! if we(i) try to lead then i know i/we (mainly talking about myself at this point) will mess it up...... i figure ya know what i think that He knows a little better about what He's doing and what He wants me to do than i do...... so now i/we must decide what we are going to do.... i have finally decided myself that i don't like just sitting around in the wilderness and i don't want to go back to egypt so let me see where else could i go
hummmmmm let me think uh uh uh pick me pick me pick me

PICK ME PICK ME

ah yes you in the back there

WE COULD FOLLOW GOD THROUGH THE WILDERNESS AND THEN INTO THE PROMISE LAND!!!!!


congratulations of have one a silver plasma TV (not really i just wanted to put that in there hehehe)


so what are we going to do? are we going to stay in egypt or are we going to follow God into the wilderness and allow Him to take care of us and lead us through to the promised land? remember though that there will be stuggles along the way.... the wilderness is just that...... a wilderness..... there are dangers everywhere.... but once again we have to trust in God and know that He is going to lead us through....... we might even kinda go in circles every once in a while, but as long as we get back on track and follow God then i think that we will be ok..... it's when we turn tail and run back to egypt that we are in trouble




ok the second part of this post about I'VE FALLEN AND I CAN'T GET UP (BUT DO I REALLY WANT TO) is that I HAVE FALLEN IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE AND HE IS THE BEST!!!!!!

if ya don't know what i'm talking about then i will give you some hints......

1) He's really really BIG!!!

need another one????



ok



2)HE'S AWESOME


another one???




3)HE'S THE LOVER OF OUR SOULS



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4)MAKER AND FRIEND



more??? ok





5)CREATER OF EVERYTHING



one more????




6)MINE AND YOURS!!!!!!!




figured it out yet?????



if not here's one more hint (and my favorite)



HE HAS GRACE AND MERCY AND HE LOVES US SOOOOOOOO MUCH MUCH MORE THAN WE CAN EVERY COMPREHEND!!!!!!



so here it is I HAVE FALLEN IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE WHO IS BIGGER THAN ANYTHING OR ANYONE ON THIS EARTH......... HE'S THE MOST AWESOMEST THING IN THE WORLD(OR IN HEAVEN) ........ HE LOVES ME AND YOU NO MATTER WHAT...... HE MADE ME (THAT'S ONE OF THE REALLY REALLY AWESOMEST THINGS...) PLUS HE MADE EVERYTHING ELSE TO........ LAST BUT NOT LEAST HE IS MINE AND I AM HIS.....


give up?????? i have fallen for the One and Only

there's a verse in the Bible (Song of Songs 6:3) it says I AM MY BELOVED'S AND HE IS MINE!!!! this is like one of the best verses in the world!! love it!!


so why the title i've fallen and i can't get up (or do i really want to) for this part? because that is what i have done...... i have fallen for my King....... i want to worship Him and love Him because he loves me so much and He is showing me this daily....... if anyone out there wants to fall in love again just remeber something..... first i have to take a little rabbit trail..... the ONETHING conference that we went to has a saying it goes ONETHING I DESIRE IS TO SIT AT THE FEET OF THE LORD ALL THE DAYS OF MY LIFE..... that's not exactly what it says but that's close enough..... anyways that is what you should remember....... the ONETHING that he desire of us is to love Him and to sit at His feet...... the question is Are we doing this and are we willing to do this????



so i guess that's all...

i'm leaving early wed. mornin so PLEASE be in prayer..... i don't have a computer to take and i don't know how much time i would have to get on it if i did so i won't be able to blog or anything but i will definitly try to write people.......


love ya all bunches and bunches!!!
me

HEY HEY HEY!!!!!!!!!!!

GUESS WHAT GUESS WHAT GUESS WHAT!!!!!!!!!

I LEAVE FOR IHOP IN 4 DAYS 20 HOURS AND 6 MINUTES (PROBLY NOT EXACTLY) but close to it anyways!!!

i just came to this realization and i had to take a break from school to share......


THANKS TO EVERYBODY WHO HAS AND IS MAKING IT POSSIBLE FOR ME TO GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1


LOVE YOU VERY VERY VERY VERY MUCH
allison

WOOOHOOOO!!!

just to let everybody know I HAVE 8 DAYS TIL I LEAVE FOR IHOP KC (KANSAS CITY)!!!!!! i have made my reservations for my hotels on the way up there and all that stuff....... i'm leaving the 20th and i'll go up close to clarkesville tennessee and spend the night....... then i'll go to columbia missouri the next day..... then on the 22nd....... i will finish my journey to my dwelling for at least the next three months!!!!!!! WOOOHOOO!!!!! if ya can't tell i'm a little excited. i actually just got on here to say that i won't be on here for the next few days (for anyone who looks at this)...... i have to finish school and i'm gonna be cutting it like super super close sooooo...... i have to put whatever time i have that i'm not worshiping reading the bible eating sleeping or working doing school............. got it? hope soooo and then after i leave i won't be able to get on here cuz i won't have a comp. or anything like that.... i might get lucky, though and get with somebody that does and then maybe they'll let me use their computer :) maybe.... if not then oh well...... i promise (for those who go to pathway) that i will write ya'll leters and get somebody to read them at church...... guess that's all
love ya'll lots and thank ya'll SOOOOOOO much!!!!!!!!
allison

i kinda also want to apologize for my previous blog..... i was sort of not in a bery good mood that day and i was just letting it all flow...... sorry please forgive me...... i apologize if i hurt anybody's feelings or anything like that...... i'm really sorry that wasn't my intent..... i was just venting ........ sorry....... really i really really am sorry.........................

the dumps

so today has not been a very good day.... it seems like everything that i touch gets messed up... it did start out pretty good though. it seems as though if my day starts out good it ends up bad and if it starts out bad it ends up good. that's what has happened the past two days. i guess i need to keep the FINISH WELL in mind.... anyways..... so i guess your wondering why my day has been so bad..... well it starts with everything going really really good..... i finished a lesson of writing which means i only have like 12 papers to write now...... yeah i know i'm working on it.... it's just getting really really frustrating when you try so hard and it just keeps getting pushed back in your face cuz you keep messing things up..... it really really stinks.... anyways so then i go to start one of my papers and i'm like hey i can go on and delete some of this stuff off my floppy disk so that i will have more room on there cuz i don't need it any more.... so that's what i did... well i went to open one of the things that i had saved because i was going to use it to do some of the writing that i was fixin to start on.... well i open it and most of what i had written wasn't there..... so i was like OH MY GOODNESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so i looked and sure enough i had deleted what i needed... then i thought for a second and i was like oh no..... i hooked back up to the internet and went to my school page to where i turn my stuff in at and looked and sure enough I HAD TURNED IN THE WRONG ONE AND DELETED THE RIGHT ONE!!!!! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR if you couldn't tell i was a little upset.... so after searching the computer for like two hours and then finally calling Uncle Tom (thanks by the way) to see if there was any way to get it back i found nothing.... so now i am praying very hard for a miracle..... if i can't get that back i don't know what will happen.... I NEED IT BACK!!!!! anyways.... so after this i just like really really bumbed(sp) and down in the dumps (hence the title)....... then mama calls and she's like (yes mama i'm putting this in here to) well did ya talk to deanne about the money (money for IHOP) no i was a little busy chewing myself out for deleting the stuff before i was completly and totally finished and graduated and married with three kids.... (this is why i like holding on to stuff cuz if i don't this is what happens) back to the money deal..... so i go ask deanne and she tells me how much.... i can asure you that this added to my frustration irritation and everything else.... not necessarily at everybody else just in general because i don't nearly have enough.... and i probly shouldn't put this on here but oh well cuz i am..... this is just the kind of mood i'm in at this point.... oh and i forgot that as i sit here listening to this wonderful captivating CD that i have i also have to listen to this beat that is off tempo and very annoying because my speakers are apparently messed up.... probly because they are just tired but none the less it still adds to my dumpyness...... for me leaving in less than two weeks (1week and six days) i'm not doing so good...... although you wouldn't have guessed it the way i was talking last night about everything that's been going on lately.... so anyways.... instead of doing school right now and messing it up to i have succomb to typing this up for all the world to see near and far..... oh well..... some may think me ungrateful for what i have gotten as far as IHOP is concerned... i'm not ungrateful or unappreciative or whatever... i thank you SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SOOOOOOOOOO much.... it's just that it's getting really really close to time for me to leave and i'm having doubts because of it and those doubts are not good cuz i know that this is what i'm supposed to be doing.... i can't wait to get up there..... i am going to have so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so much fun....... IT'S GOING TO BE GREAT JUST WAIT AND SEE!!!!!! so right now it seems as though God is going to perform a few miracles in order for me to go and that's going to be great to.... so i just previewed this post and it is really really long..... if many people don't read i understand especially since you may get a little mad.... oh well... just understand that i have been in a not so great mood today and give me a little grace (which is harder that law) hehe we figured that out last night at youth..... (thanks mr. T) SO i guess that's all
love ya'll
allison
thanks again to everybody that has helped out with prayers money thoughts or whatever....